I lost my sight
In a world
Of ephemeral light
Hiding a sea of glass
Which I willfully dived into
In the hopes to grab the stars
Reflected in those mirrors.
I lost my heart
In a fantasy
Of perfected eternity
Guising the struggles and pain
Which are wrought
From such delusion
And ignorance
Of true hardened love.
I lost my soul
In a frozen hell
From which
I've lost the right to leave.
My demons tie me down
And I hold them close
For they're the only things
Which bring me warmth.
And I live
In this silent torture
Of my own selfish design
In the hopes
These things I've lost
Will one day be returned to me.
I wanted wings
To wrap me gently
In such a wondrously beautiful embrace
Amongst the stars and angels
So I delicately ripped flight
From the butterflies surrounding my window
In the hopes they could fly me away.
I wanted to feel loved
To feel the doting heat
Of a lovers breath on my neck
And grasp on my heart
So I kissed the sun
And held it ever so gently
Against my breast till
It burned me away
And I could reminisce in its loving burn.
I wanted to be whole
Without flaw
Without ugly bones to trap my soul
Without a life
So desperately wanting
Everything it could never have or be
So I embraced the seas
Submerged my entirety
My being
Letti
I don't know why
I turned out the way I did
and I'm almost too gone to
even care anymore but-
maybe
it was the cigarette embers
lit by doubts I was too young to
entertain that softly fell into
the unused ashtray of
my mind during the midnights
of the sunrise of my life
maybe
it was my childhood
nightmares where Darkness
was solid; tangible,
it clung tighter to me than
I did my blanket
the Dark suffocated
everything but fear and
despite the lavender jokes that
adorned my temples I grew up
placing pillow down into my mouth
so that I couldn't
scream
it took me a stanza of eternity
to discover that Darkness
wasn't alone; she has a
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